• Since I spent much of my childhood being left behind and ignored, one might think that, as an adult, moments of perceived abandonment would feel old hat. The truth is, as an adult, I am always waiting to be left behind. I’m always ready to be discarded and, therefore, I spend a significant amount of time preparing for this eventuality.I lower my expectations, I don’t seek out meaningful relationships, and I don’t engage in any sort of real intimacy, physical or otherwise.Engage is the key word here. Except, when I engage, when it happens, when I’m left behind it doesn’t feel old hat. It feels like it did the first time and it takes me by surprise. So, I don’t let it happen

    Penny Reid
  • I was determined to stay off the see-saw of crazy

    Penny Reid
  • And you are more than the mistakes of your youth. You are more than the label you’ve been assigned by people who might love you, but don’t really know who you are anymore

    Penny Reid
  • I wondered what it would be like to be perfect, or at least seen that way by the outside world. It seemed to me that "perfect", the word and all its connotations, might feel a bit like a cage, a defined floor and ceiling

    Penny Reid
  • Furthermore, I preferred to only have cravings I could satisfy without the requirement or assistance of another person. This was, after all, the definition of self-reliance

    Penny Reid
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