And there I was and I met a beautiful woman the mother of my children to come and I lived with her for fifteen years and we had four children. Their eyes they're those windows to the soul and she was alive she was so alive and so sensitive she became touched by I don’t know society, stress because depression came in she became psychotic, different personality such a beautiful woman so open the mother of my kids my love. Fifteen years later she jumped from 8th story down. I didn’t see it coming but I saw the declining line
life getting out of her control there I was alone with four kids this is life beyond tears I was hopeless, powerless couldn’t do anything, but I always had this deep strange feeling that there is something more and I don’t know what it is and it’s not in words, it’s a feeling. It’s a graving from the inside from the soul from survival, but it got into me like a flash and I had to go on this path to show the world that we don’t need to be powerless in the face of death in the face of darkness depression, fear, trauma, PTSD, Bipolar, Schizophrenia. It wasn’t that I was looking for it I just wanted the answers of life. Like, it is a birth right to know why you are here in this planet why you are here as a father of children to bring purpose and sense. That is the simple birth right and it is being torpedoed and bombarded by all kind of things and confusion sets in. No! This was too much. This was the emotion torn in my heart to be healed not only to become aware how to do that and to take away the darkness for those to come. That was my journey. So, how to begin. The only thing I had was my instinct and my intuition, it’s the way it started. So, what do you do? You do twenty six world records. You go climb mount everest in your shorts. You swim under the ice and lose the way and you don’t where you are and it’s frozen and you don’t know and you go and you survive. I was able to stay for 5 to 7 minutes every time under the ice, and only thing I heard down there was… and silence an awareness deep inside which we have lost.. Silence is powerful, silence is dense it’s what I found there. I just wanted to feel good I just wanted to feel connected I showed them but still the cynicism and the mockery not only with the scientists but the whole world this mockery if it happens thirty years, thirty five years is like decades that really gets into you but I know I just feel good so I just follow my feeling 26 world records later, ‘ey what I can do anybody can do it’s not about becoming superman or superwoman or like these archetypes it’s becoming you yourself and superior to what we have learned they did experimental me with vagus nerve and to see if I was able compared to all those who weren’t, and yes I showed complete control over the vagus nerve which is dealing with all the organs on an autonomic nervous-system level and that means if you are have influence there you have influence on inflammation inflammation is the cause of any disease...
